jeLLy w0RLd

thankful to frens...

my mum's condition is no longer kept within ppl i know and those who drop by and read. still, she hasnt know it herself. days of her knowing is near. the 7th. we hav to tell her b4 the 7th.

who hav i told or ppl who hav known so far: suyin(lecturer who i asked to terminate my internship with the orgn), SRT(who i worked for 5days), mackie(who i argued badly with. and she known from suyin), choo jie(my cousin. mum's late big sis's youngest daugther), my aunties, jasmine, xinxin, felix cheong(ex-lecturer/poet who writes for TODAY), sugar daddy(who never seem to be sad/anxious abt my mum until i broke down and cry), colleagues at Speech&Drama (wher i broke down and tear lotsa time), jaky, adrian and shan.

i read jas's blog abt our tues's meetup. yesh, i lost a great deal of weight. i am happy abt it bcoz that's wat i always wanna achieved; lose weight without realising it. *tow niow pai* haha...

this sun,4th dec, is the day i'm lookin forward to. the day of our 1st family photograph taken at a professional studio. i spent $549 for 6adults and 1baby with makeup and hairstyling for ladies. i wanna pay for the whole amt but bro still gives me $500.
actually, i wanted a couple package with mum only, if u happened to read my previous entries. eventually, making it as a whole family outing will be better and fair. and, hopefully mum wont be suspicious and tot that these pic are for some purpose.
there is sth that i didnt tell jas. i lied to my mum that i won a personal makeover voucher at a lucky draw. bcoz i knew that she wont wanna go for the photography out of the blue.
mum was kinda frusrated that i had already made a deposit without consulting the whole family. i lied that i hav to decide on the day of voucher redemption, or else, the voucher is forfeit.
after much encouragment, she agreed. still, i've to ponder abt the color coordination of the clothes for the day of the shoot.

also, reading shan's blog. both of these good frens mentioned that i am a strong person and could pull thru, which i really hope so. i am so thankful that both of their hearts wrenched for my mum's condition.
unlike my sugar daddy, who still doesnt show any concern to me when i told him abt it. all he would know to show his love is to get intimate. the useless me only managed to shook him once. but, i broke down with tears again after that for he doesnt listen to my advice. i asked him to go for medical check-up and said that lungs cancer wont happen to him.

jas & shan, my mum always remb u2 esp shan. bcoz my mum seems to remb clearly during the stay at eunos, as her health hasnt deteriorate then. and shan always comes over to my place or we meet up at void deck. she knows. she rembs all. she knows ur name. at least better than jas bcoz she could only remb the jas at MACPHERSON. hahaa..

i am very blessed with u2.

posted by jellyfishy @ 3:18 pm