jeLLy w0RLd

quiet me...

still nothing from him at the moment i stepped out of house to meet parveen for 4pm talaq discussion in plaza sing. my phone makes no noise at all.

at 5pm, he called. asking me wher i am. i was pissed. i answered that i am "pak toh-ing". he paused awhile and hung the phone after an "ok".
i was sad. i shouldnt have said that. i expected him to probe but he didnt. i regret of what i've done.

i smsed him:"i am discussing project with classmate la.. i am pissed at u for missing one whole day yesterday! so whose fault? well, so meaning only u can be busy with work and i cant lah?!"
his:"i jus finish work since yesterday n i call to have dinner with you then sent you to sch. but you give me that ans..."
"definately! i never expect ur call. bcoz i always got screwed by ur ans when i ask for a dinner with u. so now, do u understand how i feel?"
-- end of sms--

controlling my emotions as not to show on my face. still putting on a smile. trashing his space outta my mind. replacing it with talaq ideas. did a very short retail therapy at xessories. looking at bags. taking note of sale items.

when arrived at school, wasnt paying attention to michael fong, as usual. kept looking at phone. wondering when he will call. wondering if he will pick me home later. he was occupying space in my mind again.

9.30pm, he called. saying that he reached. with a harsh voice, i told him to wait then as class hasnt end.

when i saw him. he was sleeping. playing techno songs from cd. this trashed my mood worse.

mackie was in car with us. we chat but he's silenced. when mac dozed off, he practically forgot abt her and was driving past mac's house.

til reached my block, i never look back at him. walked straight to lift. closed the doors without waiting for him. he didnt even dash for it, as he normally does. no smile from him too. no jiggles.

we only had two lines of conversation.
1. when he asked "want to eat?"
2. when he asked "want to go ipoh?"
i shook my head.

nothing once again. no call. no sms. let's see when he makes the call.

posted by jellyfishy @ 11:59 pm