jeLLy w0RLd

wasted me...

excitedly and nervously woke @7am today. preparing to go for 1st day of work @delfi orchard. remembering on that interview day, the chief trainer reminded me to be puntual, therefore i must keep my promise.

i planned my time schedule last nite; telling myself wat i should be doing at wat time exactly. i was ready to go out b4 the scheduled time (actually 5min earlier only lah).

the moment i stepped out of the LRT, going to take a lift down to the train platform, phone rang~ ~... a lady from the office called to ask if i could start work next tues instead of today. i was kinda having mixed feelings; overjoyed, pissed and disappointed.

overjoyed: was feelings nervous as i'm gonna meet new ppl, regardless of nasty or nice. also, was feeling sleepy and missing my bed suddenly. dunno why. seems to always have this intuition whenever i'm going out or feeling nervous.

pissed: why didnt u call me yesterday instead? though she make an effort to call me an hour b4 the reporting time for work. but i was outta house 15min earlier than ur call.

disappointed: dressed up pretty liao and now u tell me no need to come today. also, wasted journey fare of 64cents! haiz...

so, quickly made a u-turn and took LRT back home. baby ying jus woke up. it's play play time again! yeah...

was wondering if i could meet anyone for a short period of fun b4 i attend ArtsMgt orientation. jas replied that she left $5 and gotta yoga @12nn although i initated to treat her. and the piggy ah-xin slept till 1pm. haha... so, live with it loh.

smsed my sugar daddy, "i'll be out later. u want to meet u call me now. or else, 4get ant it and can don bother even to sms". i give him a 10min to reply in my heart. he really didnt, even now! WATEVER!?...

so, proceed with my hour long lonely journey to that faraway campus... attended the briefing with hunger growling heavily at one corner and fled to my sweetest home.

i guess my status should be considered as weekend lover, not a part time anymore. bcoz he dont cherish to schedule his littlest time during the weekdays and leave everything on the weekends. i am hibernating. i am learning to get back on my feet independently again. i will be strong again soon! i can still survive without him.

lesson learnt: be independent and strong still although u are immersed in a relationship. u will be alone someday as he always has a reason for not accompany u. honeymoon period is shortlived.

posted by jellyfishy @ 11:59 pm