jeLLy w0RLd

made her mad again...

probably i'm still used to be outta house at evening on a public holi, as i used to be with daddy. my butt couldnt stay put at home, i asked jas for dinner after her last day of work at CP.
mum didnt show any signs of frustration initially. so, i off without any worries/fear.
till abt 9.30pm, while i was at cold storage with jas, mum called. as usual, asking why i'm not home yet. ensured her ta i need to buy milk b4 i get home.

got homed. yelling starts... she wasnt happy. saying ta i must jalan till everyone got chase by e shopowners. i kept dumb. dont fight. took a deep breath, and asked her if she hasnt taken her medications.
her reply, "of coz i've taken! wait for u, die liao!"
another deep breath. "hav u inhale e 2medications correctly? did u turn e knob correctly with a click?"
"aiya. i know how la. anyway, there's no feeling when inhaled. jus anyhow la."
... anyhow? ... omg... did she do it correctly? when i wanna probe, she turned towards e bedroom quickly.
i'm sorry. i shouldnt hav gone out. i should hav stayed home to monitor u.

my mum's like that. when she knows she at fault, she wont admit. examples:...
~ she has been eating unhealthily. never admit ta when doc asked last sat.
~ a bottle of paper glue was slit at the neck. obviously, it was done by a blade. when she left e bottle on my desk, she denied ta she cut it. she forced too harsh and it became a big opening at the neck. i packed this bottle in her drawer when i 1st bought. so, wat actually happened?

tot: i'm a loser. i cant deal my relationships well. my family, love, and friendship. i sux at these.
how much tolerance could i take?

posted by jellyfishy @ 11:59 pm